I am considered a transsexual woman it’s how mainstream understands my gender. Yes, I was born with a penis and raised as a boy. But, I knew from the start that I was not a boy…if anything I was a girl born with a penis but that is something most people just can’t imagine. It made my entire childhood very sad because I didn’t understand why I was born the way I was. I eventually believed it was a deformity, a birth defect. All I wanted was to be normal.
Now, having gone though physical and social transition I believe I was born just fine. Being “transsexual” is not a birth defect or a deformity in any way. What makes it bad is just that society denies an equal place or understanding for us. Historically in many cultures there are histories, spiritual traditions, cultural roles, of transsexual people but it is greatly suppressed especially as Christianity and western power came to the fore of cultural domination and that is where the real hurt begins… to have to grow up believing you are alone and a freak in the world, devoid of history, devoid of acceptance. Being denied your very self.
Now, I am very proud to be transsexual and feel being transsexual is a very special gift and at the highest level of my spiritual being I believe I choose this experience to be a bridge between men and women to remind them of their shared humanity.
If there truly is another life for me I hope I return again and again a transsexual.
